Hey! Right now, I'm a freshman at Peabody Conservatory studying Music Composition. I play the piano and the cello, and I sing.
I'm here because music is the only place that I have always felt safe. I choose to pursue music because the world has forgotten how to listen. And the act of listening poorly is a violent act. I want to wake up every day and create something that encourages individuals to listen with every fiber of their being.
I've got a few things to say to you before I end this chapter of my life, being the sappy, squishy, hopeless romantic I am. What a wild year you gave me. I had my first taste of independence, discovered more aspects of my personhood that I could care to admit, and bitterly acknowledged truths that were thrown in my face. I had sleepless nights, lonely mornings, and some of the lowest days of my entire life. Never have I felt so alone. I distinctly remember standing in a crowd of screaming people, and feeling so lost. And scared. And lonely. Baltimore, you gave me the gift of strength. I am a different person because of the struggle I faced this year, because through it all, I chose to grow. In the ashes of my lowest points I found beautiful people to show me that I mattered. Through my struggle I have found cherished memories, broken laughter, stolen kisses, and genuine, raw, love. I have experienced such a beautiful world within so much pain, and I am so grateful for that. You showed me true struggle. And through it all, I learned so much. You let me grow with you, and I will forever value the time that we had together. Baltimore, your people are breathtaking and your streets are dirty. And I love all of it. You will have a piece of my heart for lifetimes to come. I hope to visit you often. When you forget me, please hold onto the growth we experienced together. May or souls sing, love, and learn.
For those of you who don't know, I won't be returning to Peabody next year, due to financial troubles. Although I'm sad to leave, I'm excited to attend University of Idaho in the fall! I so look forward to the journey ahead. Thank you to all who have made this year a year of astounding growth. I love you all ❤️